Then again you come across a song that perfectly describes how you feel at the moment.
I'm probably a year late to hear this or its MTV have already earned 15 ++ millions (and still counting) views on YouTube but if it's not for Gossip Girl (haha) I would've not known such a beautiful song exists.
This is for you.
For us.
Somebody That I Used To Know - Gotye (feat. Kimbra)
Now and then I think of when we were together Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
I told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember
You can get addicted to a certain kinda sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end So when we found that we could not make sense Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad that it was over
But you didn't have to cut me off Make it like it never happened and that we were nothing
I don't even need your love, but you treat me like a stranger
And that feels so rough
No, you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records
And then change your number
Guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believin it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know-oh-oh
But you didn't have cut me off
Make it like it never happened and that we were nothing (oh) I don't even need your love, but you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
(oh)
No, you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect you records
And then change your number (oh)
Guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Somebody that I used to know
Somebody (now your just somebody that I used to know)
That I used to know
Somebody that I used to know
Somebody (somebody) (now your just somebody that I used to know)
That I used to know
I used to know
That I used to know I used to know Somebody
Gusto kong isiping dala ng alak ang migraine na 'to at hindi dahil sa sumagi ka na naman sa isip ko. Halos mag-iisang buwan na rin sigurong wala tayong komunikasyon sa isa't isa. Ni "ha" ni "ho" 'di natin nagawa. Weren't you the one who unfollow-ed me on Twitter? At magmula noon tinuring ko ng tapos na nga sa'tin ang lahat. Kahit alam kong wala naman talagang "atin" kahit pa nung umpisa.
Nagyaya ng inuman ang kaibigan ko sa opisina. Kahit one-on-one lang daw kami. Hindi na rin ako nakatanggi dahil day-off ko na rin naman kinabukasan. Sinabi ko na lang na susunod ako.
Medyo tipsy na s'ya nung maabutan ko. Mas nauna kasi sya saking lumabas at isang oras ang pagitan ng shift naming dalawa.
Tahimik ako nung una. Nakikinig sa mga halakhak at daldal nya habang umiinom. 'Di ko na matandaan kung paanong biglang napunta ang usapan namin tungkol sa'yo. Tungkol sa "atin". Ibinuhos ko sa kanya lahat lahat ng nararamdaman kong emosyon ng sandaling yun. Ikinuwento ko ulit kung paano tayo nagkakilala, kung paano kitang minahal at kung paanong natapos sa tin ang lahat lahat.
"Eh kung i-drunk text mo kaya s'ya!"
"No way! If there's one thing he can't take away from me, it's my pride."
"'Yan hirap sayo eh, puro ka pride. Akala mo kung sino kang matapang pero sa sinasabi mo ngayon sa'kin halatang di ka pa rin nakaka move-on."
Siguro nga hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa matanggap na napunta lang sa wala ang lahat. Masakit mang tanggapin pero malamang tama nga ang sinabi na 'yon ng kaibigan ko. Na kahit anong klaseng pag-de-deny ang gawin ko, siguro nga hanggang ngayon mahal pa rin kita.