Happy Christmas!

It's Christmas!



...sending my heartfelt greeting to you all.


I miss blogging. :(

Tough Times

This is going to be my most challenging semester. EVER!

FYI I'm a working student. Both full time. Baliw lang. I want to keep myself busy kasi eh.

Currently, my work starts at 6:45 p.m. (till 3:15 a.m.) but I will have it moved to 5:00 p.m. that way I can have, at most, 3 hours of sleep before going to school.

My days off  (from work) are Mondays and Thursdays and I will keep it that way.

I can't say enough thank you's to my company for being so accommodating with my schedule.

As you can see, I have no classes on Tuesdays and Fridays. Just work. I will compensate my lost hours of sleep on these days. Tee hee.

I love challenges.

A New Beginning

I took my very first HIV test yesterday and I had to wait 24 hours for the results. Talk about suspense and torture.

I'll write a separate entry re: the whole screening process.

For now, I have a reason to celebrate.

October 21, 2011 is now my second birthday.

So yeah, Happy Birthday, Poyee!

Ng Minsang Ako'y Nagpaka-Emo

Bakit nga ba single pa rin si Poyee hanggang ngayon?  Tara't samahan mo kong magbalik tanaw sa nakaraan.

 

Si B. Ang dahilan kung bakit takot akong magmahal. Kung bakit takot akong ma-reject. Dahil sa kanya nakuntento na akong magmahal ng patago. Humanga ng patago.

Sabi nila matamis ang unang pag-ibig pero walang 'sing pait ang dinulot nito sa kin.
Bestfriends naman daw kami. 

Sa isip-isip ko... "K".

Si V. Langit at lupa ang pagitan naming dalawa. Actually kaya nya akong bilhin. Ganun sya kayaman.

Hanggang ngayon di nya alam na minsang nabaliw ako sa kanya. Sa katunayan, s'ya ang kauna unahang lalaking nagawan ko ng tula. Hindi nga lang nya nabasa.

 

Si E. Ginulo niya ang buhay ko. May boyfriend na sya noong nagkacrush ako sa kanya. Kaya't minabuti ko na lang i-kimkim yung nararamdaman ko. Sobrang lakas ng tama ko sa kanya. 

Pero nung huling kita namin, parang magaan na yung pakiramdam ko, wala ng bitterness. Ibig  bang sabihin nun nakapagmove-on na ko?

Si M. Discreet. Siya ang unang bf ko. Naging kami ata? (5 days) pero dahil sabi ni Mu[g]en kelangan maka-1 buwan muna bago ma-consider na naging kayo. Kaya, sige hindi na naging kami. LOL.

Isang gabing pinagsaluhan namin na hanggang ngayon di ko pa rin malimot. Naka auto-replay sa utak ko.

At hanggang ngayon umaasa pa rin ako.

Lahat sila magsisilbing paalala na bigo ako sa pag-ibig. Lahat sila hindi naging akin.

at lahat sila pinaiyak ako.

Aray.

Just My Two Cents' Worth

On my way home, riding a jeepney...

A man wearing a white cap, his right hand clutching a bunch of sampaguitas, got on and sat beside Manong Driver.

There were four of us inside. I was busy with my phone, tweeting and Grindr-ing (haha) at the same time. The rest of them were sleeping. I couldn't remember what made me look at the man's direction but what I witnessed next had left me speechless for a moment: 

Instead of money, the man gave some of his sampaguitas, as his fare, to the driver. 

Aww...

I couldn't help but smile and thought: "Uso pa pala barter ngayon."



"Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated." - Confucius

Naughty August

So what's the best way to spend your day off?

Mine's simple: I log-in to Camfrog (CF) and find a wank mate.
I've been hooked with this very efficient and gratifying way of getting off. 

The rules are very easy. You cruise through the available users in a room then a simple: "hi wanna go in pvt?" is enough to get the ball rolling.

My all time favorite pick up trademark line will be: "PVT? ;)". Then if you're lucky I'll show you my killer smile. (Killer daw o?)

I think the wink ";)" does the magic, or maybe the smile. Because so far, nobody's able to refuse my bidding.

I guess, I'm pretty contented with this setup. Maybe, I'll settle with this from now on. Who knows?

Lately, SEBs lost its appeal to me. I've experienced a lot of dramas and I don't think I'm ready for another bouts of hangups brought about by these casual encounters.

With cyberwanking, I get the same satisfaction from sex minus all the bullshit. Plus, I get to have "sex" with different hot guys in one day!

So log in now to CF and who knows you might receive that special "wink" from me.

P.S. I use the same handle for my Twitter in CF. Hihi. See ya there!

 

The Most Powerful Prayer

"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,

Courage to change the things I can,
And wisdom to know the difference."

Prayers need not to be complex. The simpler it is, the better.

Humility is the key.

Press Rewind

>It's my off from school and work today, yay!

>>I had two bottles of Red Horse Stallion and puffed 3 sticks of Marlboro Black. 

>>>Prior to that, I ate Chickenjoy and Hash Brown Burger from Jollibee then I thought I reached Cloud 9. 

>>>>(Actually, I was wrong. I was just lightheaded because of the too much cholesterol. 0_o)

>>>>>When I got into the office earlier, people kept on commenting that they aren't used seeing me in jeans and shirt. I said I didn't go to school that's why. 

>>>>>I'm halfway near the end of the book that I'm reading. [48 Laws of Power]. Law 20: Do Not Commit To Anyone.

>>>> I wanted to say hi to my ex then I thought that's just not right...but I still didn't manage to control the urge so I still sent him a message. And it was more than a "Hi."

>>>I  felt in the mood when I woke up so when I faced the mirror I said to myself, why not spike up your hair and forget the beanie.

>>I had more than 8 hours of sleep and I didn't want to leave the bed.

>Hmm, I should do this more often. It feels good to replay an episode from your daily adventures no matter how trivial it was. 
Till my next post. Ciao.

Hey, I'm still here!

It has been a while, (“a while” would be an understatement, I know) when I last updated this blog. I have been busy with school and work and as much as I’d like to keep track of my daily hullabaloos and what not, I guess the time’s just not enough. Anyway, here’s a quick rundown of what had transpired since I last wrote here.

I didn’t take classes last summer and now though I hate to admit this, I regret it a lot. I was confident I can catch up with the remaining units in my Plan of Study but when I got enrolled this June, my heart sunk when I discovered I still have 40+ units left to take. God, I hate 5-unit subjects! This is what I get from transferring schools. LOL. I’m not complaining though, I just can’t help but notice that there are unnecessary subjects in their B.S. Psychology curriculum. I don’t get what Asian Civilization has got to do with Psychology, neither does Retorika or World Literature! So, that will leave me another 2 years in college then, just when I thought I'd be studying medicine soon. Sigh.

Only few people know my fear of getting tested [for HIV]. Up to now, I still get chills when I think about it. What if it turns out positive, how am I going to live a life I'm just starting to establish? What will the people tell? How will they react? And the most frightening question I've had to ask: "How long am I going to live?" I don't understand what made me write about it now but I'm hoping that by doing this I will come to my sense and finally take the test. I'm not promiscuous, I should tell you. I had engaged in unprotected sex thrice; blame it on curiosity but I promised I will never do it again. With the height of AIDS and HIV incidence in our country, I can't help but get frantic. Yet, I still have not enough courage to stand up and get tested. I will, but not now.